of old ladies and attap houses, should i get to that part

you know, for all my accumulated loathing for Si Celaka, i kinda feel sorry for him because no one should feel that way. it comes to a point where you really need to keep yourself in check but you can't do it because you are you. it's absolutely futile, similar to a situation where you try to put makeup on without using a mirror. you know what you're supposed to do but you can't go about it the way you want to. in that sense, many realise where they have to change but they just can't change at the snap of a finger. its awkward and it usually never works.

so you end up feeling like shit, which i totally understand (but not really because her highness thinks she's perfect and of the akhbreed species therefore is at a position of supreme perfection, that is to say, she is perfecter than perfect one ok!).

but i'm just saying that for today cos i'm in a good mood and the compassionate part of me decided to be dominant.

the more mean side of me says "he fucking deserves it ah!" but right now, my monster-bitch persona is about as harmful as a pinkie-sized barney with fangs.

sigh.

3 more months.